The Best of Friends

This poem goes to my dear friend

The best of friends,
are fellow travelers,
on the road of life

The best of friends,
change and grow,
with each other,
and learn,
through one another's,
experiences and lessons.

The best of friends can share,
the most insignificant,
and the most shining parts,
of themselves,
with the same degree,
of joy and openness.

The best of friends,
are friends for a lifetime-
like you and me.

These of late

Recently what I wrote was not as usual as before, I can say that it's not something intelligent to share with but I guess sometimes we do have these ups and downs in life that there are times we just need to let it out but at the same time didn't really know who to talk to or who can be trusted. This is the way I eased them, but again, as egoistical as I can be, I'm not going to let you know what is actually happen to me. Nevertheless, I cracked few hints that will make you have the idea what's going on.

I do have something else much worth to be shared as some sort of 'policies' I applied to this blog but I guess it depends on my mood. For now, I'm in the middle of inner-crisis and need to do some soul-searching.

Peace out.

Doing just fine

Assalamualaikum dear readers,

As I write this, I actually don't really have an idea what's the next line would be but I'm just gonna scribble it out anyway. 

There's a few things that you have to know about myself that I am a kind of person who would think carefully before I make a big(or small) decision, even if wanting to say 'hi' to a friend in the list of my friends chat list on fb. And I'm a kind of person who won't be deceived by what my heart says, I took a deep, and intense considerations before making any decision, it concludes the consequences as well as the benefits, loss, and everything in between. See, I'm a very tact in term of those matters. 

Thus, when somebody try to give me advise on how to treat others, or how to handle or manage a relationship that he/she don't even been in my shoes for a second or merely even know me, I seriously like to give him/her a high-five. In the face. With a chair. Made of steel. Hahaha. Seriously. 

Actually I'm overwhelmed and touched by these people's concern towards me about my failed relationship(s), but thanks, I'm doing just fine. 

I'd rather be single than be in wrong relationship (or person).


I'm doin' just fine,

I bruise easily

My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defences down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Can't scratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you

So be gentle...

I bruise easily
I bruise easily

Fall

Don't find love, 

Let love find you,

That's why it's called

Falling in Love

because you don't force

yourself to fall,

You just fall

Once in a blue moon

Suddenly... This feeling, of unwanted feeling, maybe a gift from Him, come to me once in a blue moon. This unwanted feeling is, for me, an infatuation phase which always deceit my conscious mind to be in idling mode. Not a good feeling though, in long terms.

You most probably couldn't understand this what more to relate. Thus, I am so sorry for wasting your time reading my scribble.

Lost awhile in Lailatul Qadr

Assalamualaikum, first and foremost before I start. 

Yeah, its been awhile since I left this blog. I don't simply write if I don't have an entry that can beneficently shared among us. There's a lot to write so does to keep to myself. A lot of questions unanswered, situations unexplained, and tangles untangled. Today is the 27th of Ramadhan, I don't know where to put the benchmark of quality if been compared to last year or previous years. As previous year I'd shared benefits of  solat tarawikh every night and I even wrote an entry about Ramadhan but this year I'm just focusing myself towards devoting myself towards Allah. And yet, it comes to my mind a few questions, 'have I reached my target? Did I devoutly remorse what have I done? What had I gain? Did I obtain bless from Allah? His forgiveness? And I keep on wander these questions in my mind. 

I just hope, no, I really really want Allah to soften and cleanse my heart, be it by decontaminate or disinfect by fumigating or other thousand ways doing it. I just don't know how, anymore. A lot of assiduous had been put in fighting heart 'diseases' but it comes to no avail. I thought this is the month where all the devils had been entangle thus a perfect time for me to change, maybe I did a little bit but I can feel it's not enough. 

So if anyone know a way, please please please tell me how.. I am so desperate that sooner or later I'll become a desperado. (Just kidding). Maybe a desperado of wanting to be good? Haha. Err, didn't it sound ironic? 

Anyway, I would like to share you one more thing. I think, maybe, (this is what I felt), last night was night of Lailatul Qadr. The night was so serenely peaceful like those signs they (ulama's) said. And yet, I was questioning myself again, did I get the night that is better than thousands months? -_-

Let's practice this d'ua before it's too late

Ramadhan... I hope, wish, and pray, we'll meet again next year, Insya Allah.. You'll be dearly missed.. T-T