Suddenly... This feeling, of unwanted feeling, maybe a gift from Him, come to me once in a blue moon. This unwanted feeling is, for me, an infatuation phase which always deceit my conscious mind to be in idling mode. Not a good feeling though, in long terms.
You most probably couldn't understand this what more to relate. Thus, I am so sorry for wasting your time reading my scribble.
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Lost awhile in Lailatul Qadr
Assalamualaikum, first and foremost before I start.
Ramadhan... I hope, wish, and pray, we'll meet again next year, Insya Allah.. You'll be dearly missed.. T-T
Yeah, its been awhile since I left this blog. I don't simply write if I don't have an entry that can beneficently shared among us. There's a lot to write so does to keep to myself. A lot of questions unanswered, situations unexplained, and tangles untangled. Today is the 27th of Ramadhan, I don't know where to put the benchmark of quality if been compared to last year or previous years. As previous year I'd shared benefits of solat tarawikh every night and I even wrote an entry about Ramadhan but this year I'm just focusing myself towards devoting myself towards Allah. And yet, it comes to my mind a few questions, 'have I reached my target? Did I devoutly remorse what have I done? What had I gain? Did I obtain bless from Allah? His forgiveness? And I keep on wander these questions in my mind.
I just hope, no, I really really want Allah to soften and cleanse my heart, be it by decontaminate or disinfect by fumigating or other thousand ways doing it. I just don't know how, anymore. A lot of assiduous had been put in fighting heart 'diseases' but it comes to no avail. I thought this is the month where all the devils had been entangle thus a perfect time for me to change, maybe I did a little bit but I can feel it's not enough.
So if anyone know a way, please please please tell me how.. I am so desperate that sooner or later I'll become a desperado. (Just kidding). Maybe a desperado of wanting to be good? Haha. Err, didn't it sound ironic?
Anyway, I would like to share you one more thing. I think, maybe, (this is what I felt), last night was night of Lailatul Qadr. The night was so serenely peaceful like those signs they (ulama's) said. And yet, I was questioning myself again, did I get the night that is better than thousands months? -_-
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| Let's practice this d'ua before it's too late |
Monday, April 23, 2012
Online Banking Fraud
I'd received an email last few weeks asking me to verified my account. Fortunately I've been hearing this kind of cases quite a number so I don't buy the trick. After a while of so-called investigating, I found out that there are few things that are not right about this. By not clicking the link, I would like very much to reveal what are the scam they're trying to apply. Below is the pictures that tells a thousand words. Enjoy! =P
Let me break it down for you.
An experience from my cousin as she's new to the online banking back then; someone ask her by using maybank2u phone system to verified her IC number and she replied it and after a while she check her money in the bank has been stolen for a few hundred. Do not, I repeat, DO NOT verified anything when they ask you to do so, unless you're the one who contacted the bank. I believe that this is not only happening to Maybank Berhad but also to any online banking system.
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| The email. |
- The email is from m2u@maybank2u.com.my which supposedly should be m2u@maybank.com.my, there is no '2u' after maybank word.
- I think the sentence is not complete. 'As requested, we're writing to let you know that your Maybank2u Online Banking.' What??? Let me know what? And usually formal letter do not use apostrophe (the ' punctuation mark).
- Notice that I highlighted the 'need to verified', it is actually the fraud. By verifying your account through the link they've given will directly lead them to your account. This is very dangerous once you've click the link as you've given them access to your account as well as your details i.e full name, address, IC number, etc.
- Always remember the notice maybank2u Security Tips once you enter the webpage, manually type the online banking address.
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| Notice when you login to maybank2u.com |
An experience from my cousin as she's new to the online banking back then; someone ask her by using maybank2u phone system to verified her IC number and she replied it and after a while she check her money in the bank has been stolen for a few hundred. Do not, I repeat, DO NOT verified anything when they ask you to do so, unless you're the one who contacted the bank. I believe that this is not only happening to Maybank Berhad but also to any online banking system.
Quite cunning though. So, have a safe online banking everyone!
Sunday, April 8, 2012
APA HEBATNYA SOLAT DI AWAL WAKTU?
Setiap peralihan waktu solat sebenarnya menunjukkan perubahan tenaga alam ini yang boleh diukur dan dicerap melalui perubahan warna alam.
Rasanya fenomena perubahan warna alam adalah sesuatu yang tidak asing bagi mereka yang terlibat dalam bidang fotografi, betul tak?
WAKTU SUBUH
Sebagai contoh, pada waktu Subuh alam berada dalam spektrum warna biru muda yang bersamaan dengan frekuensi tiroid yang mempengaruhi sistem metabolisma tubuh.
Jadi warna biru muda atau waktu Subuh mempunyai rahsia berkaitan dengan penawar/rezeki dan komunikasi.
Mereka yang kerap tertinggal waktu Subuhnya ataupun terlewat secara berulang-ulang kali, lama kelamaan akan menghadapi masalah komunikasi dan rezeki.
Ini kerana tenaga alam iaitu biru muda tidak dapat diserap oleh tiroid yang mesti berlaku dalam keadaan roh dan jasad bercantum (keserentakan ruang dan masa) - dalam erti kata lain jaga daripada tidur.
Di sini juga dapat kita cungkil akan rahsia diperintahkan solat di awal waktu.
Bermulanya saja azan Subuh, tenaga alam pada waktu itu berada pada tahap optimum.
Tenaga inilah yang akan diserap oleh tubuh melalui konsep resonan pada waktu rukuk dan sujud.
Jadi mereka yang terlewat Subuhnya sebenar sudah mendapat tenaga yang tidak optimum lagi.
WAKTU ZOHOR
Warna alam seterusnya berubah ke warna hijau (Isyraq & Dhuha) dan kemudian warna kuning menandakan masuknya waktu Zohor.
Spektrum warna pada waktu ini bersamaan dengan frekuensi perut dan hati yang berkaitan dengan sistem penghadaman.
Warna kuning ini mempunyai rahsia yang berkaitan dengan keceriaan.
Jadi mereka yang selalu ketinggalan atau terlewat Zuhurnya berulang-ulang kali dalam hidupnya akan menghadapi masalah di perut dan hilang sifat cerianya.
Orang yang tengah sakit perut ceria tak?
WAKTU ASAR
Kemudian warna alam akan berubah kepada warna oren, iaitu masuknya waktu Asar di mana spektrum warna pada waktu ini bersamaan dengan frekuensi prostat, uterus, ovari dan testis yang merangkumi sistem reproduktif.
Rahsia warna oren ialah kreativiti.
Orang yang kerap tertinggal Asar akan hilang daya kreativitinya dan lebih malang lagi kalau di waktu Asar ini jasad dan roh seseorang ini terpisah (tidur la tu).
Dan jangan lupa, tenaga pada waktu Asar ni amat diperlukan oleh organ-organ reproduktif kita.
WAKTU MAGRIB
Menjelang waktu Maghrib, alam berubah ke warna merah dan di waktu ini kita kerap dinasihatkan oleh orang-orang tua agar tidak berada di luar rumah.
Ini kerana spektrum warna pada waktu ini menghampiri frekuensi jin dan iblis (infra-red) dan ini bermakna jin dan iblis pada waktu ini amat bertenaga kerana mereka resonan dengan alam.
Mereka yang sedang dalam perjalanan juga seelok-eloknya berhenti dahulu pada waktu ini (solat Maghrib dulu la) kerana banyak interferens (pembelauan) berlaku pada waktu ini yang boleh mengelirukan mata kita.
Rahsia waktu Maghrib atau warna merah ialah keyakinan, pada frekuensi otot, saraf dan tulang.
WAKTU ISYAK
Apabila masuk waktu Isyak, alam berubah ke warna Indigo dan seterusnya memasuki fasa Kegelapan.
Waktu Isyak ini menyimpan rahsia ketenteraman dan kedamaian di mana frekuensinya bersamaan dengan sistem kawalan otak.
Mereka yang kerap ketinggalan Isyaknya akan selalu berada dalam kegelisahan.
Alam sekarang berada dalam Kegelapan dan sebetulnya, inilah waktu tidur dalam Islam.
Tidur pada waktu ini dipanggil tidur delta di mana keseluruhan sistem tubuh berada dalam kerehatan.
QIAMULLAIL
Selepas tengah malam, alam mula bersinar kembali dengan warna putih, merah jambu dan seterusnya ungu di mana ianya bersamaan dengan frekuensi kelenjar pineal, pituitari, talamus dan hipotalamus.
Tubuh sepatutnya bangkit kembali pada waktu ini dan dalam Islam waktu ini dipanggil Qiamullail.
Begitulah secara ringkas perkaitan waktu solat dengan warna alam.
Manusia kini sememangnya telah sedar akan kepentingan tenaga alam ini dan inilah faktor adanya bermacam-macam kaedah meditasi yang dicipta seperti taichi, qi-gong dan sebagainya.
Semuanya dicipta untuk menyerap tenaga-tenaga alam ke sistem tubuh.
Kita sebagai umat Islam sepatutnya bersyukur kerana telah di’kurniakan’ syariat solat oleh Allah s.w.t tanpa perlu kita memikirkan bagaimana hendak menyerap tenaga alam ini.
Hakikat ini seharusnya menginsafkan kita bahawa Allah s.w.t mewajibkan solat ke atas hamba-Nya atas sifat pengasih dan penyayang-Nya sebagai pencipta kerana Dia tahu hamba-Nya ini amat-amat memerlukan-Nya.
Artikel ini dipetik dari facebook page Ust. Nasir yang saya kira sangat berguna untuk saya kongsi dengan anda semua untuk panduan dan sebagai peringatan kepada saya agar tidak melengah-lengahkan waktu solat dan terutama sekali agar tidak tidur selepas solat subuh.
WAKTU SUBUH
Sebagai contoh, pada waktu Subuh alam berada dalam spektrum warna biru muda yang bersamaan dengan frekuensi tiroid yang mempengaruhi sistem metabolisma tubuh.
Jadi warna biru muda atau waktu Subuh mempunyai rahsia berkaitan dengan penawar/rezeki dan komunikasi.
Mereka yang kerap tertinggal waktu Subuhnya ataupun terlewat secara berulang-ulang kali, lama kelamaan akan menghadapi masalah komunikasi dan rezeki.
Ini kerana tenaga alam iaitu biru muda tidak dapat diserap oleh tiroid yang mesti berlaku dalam keadaan roh dan jasad bercantum (keserentakan ruang dan masa) - dalam erti kata lain jaga daripada tidur.
Di sini juga dapat kita cungkil akan rahsia diperintahkan solat di awal waktu.
Bermulanya saja azan Subuh, tenaga alam pada waktu itu berada pada tahap optimum.
Tenaga inilah yang akan diserap oleh tubuh melalui konsep resonan pada waktu rukuk dan sujud.
Jadi mereka yang terlewat Subuhnya sebenar sudah mendapat tenaga yang tidak optimum lagi.
WAKTU ZOHOR
Warna alam seterusnya berubah ke warna hijau (Isyraq & Dhuha) dan kemudian warna kuning menandakan masuknya waktu Zohor.
Spektrum warna pada waktu ini bersamaan dengan frekuensi perut dan hati yang berkaitan dengan sistem penghadaman.
Warna kuning ini mempunyai rahsia yang berkaitan dengan keceriaan.
Jadi mereka yang selalu ketinggalan atau terlewat Zuhurnya berulang-ulang kali dalam hidupnya akan menghadapi masalah di perut dan hilang sifat cerianya.
Orang yang tengah sakit perut ceria tak?
WAKTU ASAR
Kemudian warna alam akan berubah kepada warna oren, iaitu masuknya waktu Asar di mana spektrum warna pada waktu ini bersamaan dengan frekuensi prostat, uterus, ovari dan testis yang merangkumi sistem reproduktif.
Rahsia warna oren ialah kreativiti.
Orang yang kerap tertinggal Asar akan hilang daya kreativitinya dan lebih malang lagi kalau di waktu Asar ini jasad dan roh seseorang ini terpisah (tidur la tu).
Dan jangan lupa, tenaga pada waktu Asar ni amat diperlukan oleh organ-organ reproduktif kita.
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| Peliharalah kamu (kerjakanlah dengan tetap dan sempurna pada waktunya) segala sembahyang fardu, khasnya sembahyang Wusta (sembahyang Asar), dan berdirilah kerana Allah (dalam sembahyang kamu) dengan taat dan khusyuk. ::Al-baqarah:238:: |
WAKTU MAGRIB
Menjelang waktu Maghrib, alam berubah ke warna merah dan di waktu ini kita kerap dinasihatkan oleh orang-orang tua agar tidak berada di luar rumah.
Ini kerana spektrum warna pada waktu ini menghampiri frekuensi jin dan iblis (infra-red) dan ini bermakna jin dan iblis pada waktu ini amat bertenaga kerana mereka resonan dengan alam.
Mereka yang sedang dalam perjalanan juga seelok-eloknya berhenti dahulu pada waktu ini (solat Maghrib dulu la) kerana banyak interferens (pembelauan) berlaku pada waktu ini yang boleh mengelirukan mata kita.
Rahsia waktu Maghrib atau warna merah ialah keyakinan, pada frekuensi otot, saraf dan tulang.
WAKTU ISYAK
Apabila masuk waktu Isyak, alam berubah ke warna Indigo dan seterusnya memasuki fasa Kegelapan.
Waktu Isyak ini menyimpan rahsia ketenteraman dan kedamaian di mana frekuensinya bersamaan dengan sistem kawalan otak.
Mereka yang kerap ketinggalan Isyaknya akan selalu berada dalam kegelisahan.
Alam sekarang berada dalam Kegelapan dan sebetulnya, inilah waktu tidur dalam Islam.
Tidur pada waktu ini dipanggil tidur delta di mana keseluruhan sistem tubuh berada dalam kerehatan.
QIAMULLAIL
Selepas tengah malam, alam mula bersinar kembali dengan warna putih, merah jambu dan seterusnya ungu di mana ianya bersamaan dengan frekuensi kelenjar pineal, pituitari, talamus dan hipotalamus.
Tubuh sepatutnya bangkit kembali pada waktu ini dan dalam Islam waktu ini dipanggil Qiamullail.
Begitulah secara ringkas perkaitan waktu solat dengan warna alam.
Manusia kini sememangnya telah sedar akan kepentingan tenaga alam ini dan inilah faktor adanya bermacam-macam kaedah meditasi yang dicipta seperti taichi, qi-gong dan sebagainya.
Semuanya dicipta untuk menyerap tenaga-tenaga alam ke sistem tubuh.
Kita sebagai umat Islam sepatutnya bersyukur kerana telah di’kurniakan’ syariat solat oleh Allah s.w.t tanpa perlu kita memikirkan bagaimana hendak menyerap tenaga alam ini.
Hakikat ini seharusnya menginsafkan kita bahawa Allah s.w.t mewajibkan solat ke atas hamba-Nya atas sifat pengasih dan penyayang-Nya sebagai pencipta kerana Dia tahu hamba-Nya ini amat-amat memerlukan-Nya.
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| Dan dirikanlah kamu akan sembahyang dan keluarkanlah zakat, dan rukuklah kamu semua (berjemaah) bersama-sama orang-orang yang rukuk. ::Al-baqarah:43:: |
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Forgive me for being too 'nuha'
This entry was supposedly be published last month, but then again, same lame excuses I would like to present. Please don't misconcepts the title, it is not about nuha. The idea was derived from my conversation between me and my long-lost friend.
Friend: sekian lama tidak di dengari sebarang berita,bagaimana keadaanya anda??sehat sejahtera hendaknya..hahahaha
Me: Baik², alhamdulillah.. Anda? Sekarang saya bekerja, agak sibuk, tapi semuanya under control lagi
Friend: anda sebuk??pernahkah anda tidak sebuk??hahaha..sebuk² pun,perot kena jaga,nanti kena gastrik lagi,masuk lagi hospital.
Me: Hahaha. Good point there. Saya tak pernah tak sebuk, bertambah umur = bertambah sebuk. Damn. But yeah, gastric problem, never stops. I was hospitalized (again) last two years, hopefully next coming years takde lah. Serik. (Ceh, serik la sangat, poyo je)
Friend: masih nuha yang dulu..mungkin di dalam kamus dewan bahasa pustaka edisi ke 5 nanti akan di daftar perkataan nuha sebagai kata ganti untuk kesebukan yang tiada penghujung??hahaha..atau mungkin anda mahu membuat hospital itu sebagai rumah anda yang kedua??hahaha..
Me: Oh, awesome betol kalau nuha jadi kata ganti nama untuk sebuk yang tiada berpenghhujung. Haha. Kalau camtu kamus dewan bahasa akan jadi dua kali ganda tebal? Sebab banyak lagi nama org yang sibuk dapat masuk dalam kamus dewan bahasa tu. Haha
Friend: saya belum jumpa lagi orang yang 'senuha' anda..jadi andalah lambang 'kenuhakan' wanita bekerjaya..hahaha..dan disebabkan oleh 'kenuhakan' yang terjadi,anda telah mendaftar untuk menjadi pengunjung hospital yang tegar..jadi,moral of the story,jangan jadi 'nuha'..hahaha
Hahaha, he made out his point there. Maybe I was rushing life to stressful path. I should've taken life as a bless from Allah and embrace it to the fullest.
Cheers!
Hahaha, he made out his point there. Maybe I was rushing life to stressful path. I should've taken life as a bless from Allah and embrace it to the fullest.
Cheers!
Sunday, April 1, 2012
If you think safety is expensive, try having an accident
Good day fellas. Haven't had merely an entry for two months is just because, as usual, I am full throttle towards my career I'm building now as well as health complication that I go through every single day especially morning.
Remember the accident that I had few months back? Well, it lead me to have breathing difficulties that I have these 3 months, every time I wake up, whether it is night, or morning or even when I take a nap, every time, without fail. At first I thought I'm going to die or I have a disease, maybe lungs problem and whatnot. I even google the symptoms that I had and bump into COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease). Not satisfied, I consult a few doctors to check what's going on with me and even had ECG test, luckily it turns out to be normal. After 4th visit to the doctors, I think they gave up and hand me a referral letter to specialist hospital.
Few of you who know me, I'm a kind of person who put career first, won't straight away go to the hospital just because I had this everyday-breathing-difficulties. Yup, I delay the appointment up to two weeks until one morning I hardly breath that I'm sure I'm going to die soon. On such a chaotic morning, after performing my Subh prayer, my dad rush me to the KPJ Specialist Hospital to find out more about my 'disease'.
The good thing about private hospital is they are very highly efficient, yeah, we pay them highly of course. In just a few hours, I've done ECG (again), blood test, urine test, X-ray, and CT scan, consults specialist cardiologist including warded me in two-bedded room. Before this I went to the government hospital and they've set my appointment which is on May, (wutta..?). But this is not to say anything bad about government hospital, I totally understand why they are less efficient.
The cardiologist, Dr Daud, didn't suspect me to have heart problem for such at young age, with small build, it can't be heart problem, same things to the lungs. So, if everything turns out to be normal, what is it actually? The very next morning, I was brought to see the specialist in orthopedics. Looking at the CT scanned and X-ray results, is perfectly normal.
Suddenly, he, Dr. Robert zoomed in at the left ribs area and found out that there are fractured at the 8th and 9th ribs. He investigated me whether I had an accident or have I fall lately, yeah, only then I remembered that I had an accident last few month. Just imagine if a car is running about 90 or 100 km/h, and stopped abruptly with force, the inertia that the car is holding is quite an impactful, I suppose. Only now that it affected my respiratory system. He said most probably because I was skinny and the seat-belt must've been gripped my ribs subconsciously. I don't remember the seat-belt tucked me so hardly that it'd fractured my ribs, but the theory might be consistent with tragedy. Luckily, he said that the fractured ribs will recover by itself, time by time. Thus, for the time being, I shouldn't be so active, no more badminton, tennis etc.. ='(
I was hospitalized for three days, and been given MC for the rest of the week. My next appointment is next 7 days, and the bill is RM2,475.90. So, relate the title with the bill ya. It's not about the bill itself but also the medical leaves I've consumed, the breathing difficulties and the self-assumption that I've made which had sometimes, trigger the subconscious panic in my brain, I mean, who wants to have a chronic disease and die when you're not ready, right?
Therefore, lesson to be learned;
Remember the accident that I had few months back? Well, it lead me to have breathing difficulties that I have these 3 months, every time I wake up, whether it is night, or morning or even when I take a nap, every time, without fail. At first I thought I'm going to die or I have a disease, maybe lungs problem and whatnot. I even google the symptoms that I had and bump into COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease). Not satisfied, I consult a few doctors to check what's going on with me and even had ECG test, luckily it turns out to be normal. After 4th visit to the doctors, I think they gave up and hand me a referral letter to specialist hospital.
Few of you who know me, I'm a kind of person who put career first, won't straight away go to the hospital just because I had this everyday-breathing-difficulties. Yup, I delay the appointment up to two weeks until one morning I hardly breath that I'm sure I'm going to die soon. On such a chaotic morning, after performing my Subh prayer, my dad rush me to the KPJ Specialist Hospital to find out more about my 'disease'.
The good thing about private hospital is they are very highly efficient, yeah, we pay them highly of course. In just a few hours, I've done ECG (again), blood test, urine test, X-ray, and CT scan, consults specialist cardiologist including warded me in two-bedded room. Before this I went to the government hospital and they've set my appointment which is on May, (wutta..?). But this is not to say anything bad about government hospital, I totally understand why they are less efficient.
The cardiologist, Dr Daud, didn't suspect me to have heart problem for such at young age, with small build, it can't be heart problem, same things to the lungs. So, if everything turns out to be normal, what is it actually? The very next morning, I was brought to see the specialist in orthopedics. Looking at the CT scanned and X-ray results, is perfectly normal.
Suddenly, he, Dr. Robert zoomed in at the left ribs area and found out that there are fractured at the 8th and 9th ribs. He investigated me whether I had an accident or have I fall lately, yeah, only then I remembered that I had an accident last few month. Just imagine if a car is running about 90 or 100 km/h, and stopped abruptly with force, the inertia that the car is holding is quite an impactful, I suppose. Only now that it affected my respiratory system. He said most probably because I was skinny and the seat-belt must've been gripped my ribs subconsciously. I don't remember the seat-belt tucked me so hardly that it'd fractured my ribs, but the theory might be consistent with tragedy. Luckily, he said that the fractured ribs will recover by itself, time by time. Thus, for the time being, I shouldn't be so active, no more badminton, tennis etc.. ='(
I was hospitalized for three days, and been given MC for the rest of the week. My next appointment is next 7 days, and the bill is RM2,475.90. So, relate the title with the bill ya. It's not about the bill itself but also the medical leaves I've consumed, the breathing difficulties and the self-assumption that I've made which had sometimes, trigger the subconscious panic in my brain, I mean, who wants to have a chronic disease and die when you're not ready, right?
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| A week medical leave |
Therefore, lesson to be learned;
- Safety is not a thing that you can compromise
- Health come first than career ( I remembered Zach told me about this and he went on elaborate it) :)
- Do not delay if you feel something wrong with your body, it might've threaten your life
- Don't go and have your self-assumption that you have this and that diseases, just go and seek consultation from a doctor or two
Till we meet again! Assalamualaikum.
Monday, January 30, 2012
Egotistical
Egotist; iː.gəʊ .tɪst (also egoist)
Definition: excessively conceited or absorb in oneself; self-centered. According to Cambridge Advance Learner Dictionary ; a person who considers themselves to be better or more important than other people.
Definition: excessively conceited or absorb in oneself; self-centered. According to Cambridge Advance Learner Dictionary ; a person who considers themselves to be better or more important than other people.
If you've come across this entry, most probably you'll define me as humbled and whatnot, or at the very least, you'll reckon that I'll improve in my driving skills especially after what had happened to me. Atleast I thought I was. But I'm not.
Last weeknight, I took my younger sisters to my colleague's open house, and I gave them some tips (yeah, like I'm THAT good in driving) but end up they give me a lecture on how my driving skill really is. They said I'm driving viciously. I said, "no, I'm not, this is my driving skill, this is the way I drive and this is the way dad taught me, I'm getting used to it". The conversation that almost began to fuss go on as my youngest sister, 12, starting to say her opinion by telling me that riding with me is not smooth and enjoying, always action and drama going on every single time I give them a ride (okay she might exaggerating a lil bit). So that was less or more of the juicy journey on the way back.
Things I really can't forget what my sister told me is that when I was denying that I drive more less like fast and furious action movie was "you've been into an accident before, and yet you still drive like it never happened, you should atleast improve or be more careful next time around", I replied her like "I know what I'm doing and you don't have your hands on the wheel, you don't know what/how it feels, we'll see how you drive once you own a car". After so much denying and disapproving statements and facts being laid upon me, she later on added, "wow, such an egoistical you are".
...........silence...........
Silence = thinking
Yeah, I guess I am an egotistical kind of person. The egotism that my mom has always try to put away from me since I was a little kid is like filing rust on steel, the steel become stainless when you keep on filing it but when you don't, it'll 'grow' even worse.
The thing is that I cannot accept the complaints from someone who is younger than me or someone who does not have the knowledge in the field of what they're talking about. The brutal truth hurts, it really does, and yeah, I'm quite a wreckless driver, I don't deny it but I just can't confront it in front of them.
The question now is: when am I going to change? ~.~"
The question now is: when am I going to change? ~.~"
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