Changed

Assalamualaikum dear readers,

Again, it's been awhile since my last entry. Again, I've been busy. But I just feel I need to scribble things. Not really on my mind but what've just crossed. As mentioned above, I've changed. Don't know whether change for the better or viseversa. 

I've changed for the past 3 years, in terms of:
 - The way I perceive things and situations
 - The way I think and react
 - My working life
 - My life goal

Forgive me for being selfish or too intent towards myself not to share with you the details, as usual, this is me. My blog is not my diary, but as a reminder when I read it back, someday. I jot down the point so that I'll be reminded. This is also to train my memory. Maybe you should do too :)


*PS: Hoping that I get the mood of writing this often. I miss to write and practice to throw up my vocab.

Till then.

Enthusiasm to strive

Assalamualaikum dear readers.

Please forgive me for being idle quite a while. These are the months of the busiest months of my life, nothing but work, in a sense. Not to say I enjoy being in this state that I scribble this down, but somehow I have to jot down what's on my mind so that maybe someday I can refer to this tidbit whenever I feel demoralized.

Yesterday was a very challenging day for me as my team and I were competing(healthily) with 2 other teams to come out of a design each, to qualify to be in a proposal tender. To make long story short, I have to do the floor plan layout incorporated with the design. I try to do it as detail as possible and later on found out that I mistakenly do the wrong layout which has not been updated. I haven't sleep merely two days. My head is almost in a facet of daze. Time is running out. I was cursing and panicking inside but acting cool. With a stress face. I was about to breakdown and cry but I said to myself there's no use of me to do so or curse whatsoever and I started calling for Him. I don't know somehow,  what force or magic it is when you chant or ask for His help (if you have good relationship with Him), He'll grant your wishes or at the very least, give you the strength to move on, to push you when things seem not to be feasible and everything is not right.

Some might not have an idea what am I scribbling about, some may say this is common but when you're in my shoes, the feel is very different.  All you wanna do is leave the desk (or even worst, the body) and get lost. But what makes me stay strong is because I believe Allah is there to sort this mess out and this is my responsibility to get it done. I take this accountability very seriously and this is what I should practice in everyday basis.

The story doesn't end there. Later that night, I forgot to do the mood board. I was assigned to do it a day before but I totally forget it until I have a few more hours before midnight. I was still in the office. Sigh. And again I said to myself, you can do this, this is easier than that morning. And again with the help of Allah,  I finally managed to design a mood board. I haven't come across a mood board. That was my first time. Lol. Silly me. It turns out that actually it is very easy when you're in the mood.  Lesson learned. Always, always, always psych yourself up when you seem to be facing a problem.

I hope I can remember this whenever I encounter this kind of circumstances in future.

Till then. Xoxo.

Assalamualaikum.

Mother knows best

Watched it? Yeah, pretty much were true about a mother . Not the part that she's evil but the fact that your mother knows you even better than you, what more any other person. I don't know about you but it works on me. Haha. 

Sometimes even if they are not so intelligent or really successful but they are wise, I can tell. And sometimes, even they don't know about everything, and you doubt about her opinion, just listen to her and do what she told you so because in the end, it's not the result that matters but the blessing from Allah. Allah loves the mother that is why a mother's prayers are much much more likely to be granted than a father*. Just because of the mother's love. So seek for her blessing and you shall granted Allah's blessing. 

I love you mom. 

Xoxo

Post script: Not trying to be 'genderist' or denying the gender equality, but this is from a reliable source of hadith.  

Compatible or Upgrade?

Assalamualaikum dear readers,

Last week as I was having lunch with my bunch of colleagues, a friend ask me, do I have a relationship (so-called) and I said I couldn't find someone compatible to get along with me. And he said what kind of compatible are you searching for? Compatible is for computer and software. He then ask me what do I do if a software is not compatible with the computer. I said, uninstall it. He corrected me by telling, "no, when a software is not compatible anymore, you upgrade. So in this case you have to upgrade yourself instead of being compatible because upgrading yourself will makes you compatible with any software". Point. True or true? 

So when you're not compatible anymore, don't uninstall the 'software', but upgrade yourself. Can you comprehend what I mean? Get it? Never mind if you don't get it because this entry is purposely to remind myself. 

^^,

Kalau Dahi Tak Mencecah Sejadah Di Dunia!

Bersihkanlah dirimu sebelum kamu dimandikan
Berwudhu’lah kamu sebelum kamu diwudhu’kan
Dan solatlah kamu sebelum kamu disolatkan

Tutuplah ‘auratmu sebelum ‘auratmu ditutupkan
Dengan kain kafan yang serba putih
Pada waktu itu tidak guna lagi bersedih
Walaupun orang yang hadir itu merintih

Selepas itu kamu akan diletak di atas lantai
Lalu dilaksanakanlah solat Jenazah
Dengan empat kali takbir dan satu salam
Berserta Fatihah, Selawat dan doa
Sebagai memenuhi tuntutan Fardhu Kifayah

Tapi apakah empat kali takbir itu dapat menebus
Segala dosa meninggalkan solat sepanjang hidup?

Apakah solat Jenazah yang tanpa rukuk dan sujud
Dapat membayar hutang rukuk dan sujudmu yang telah luput?

Sungguh tertipulah dirimu jika beranggapan demikian...

Justeru ku menyeru sekelian Muslimin dan Muslimat
Usunglah dirimu ke tikar solat
Sebelum kamu diusung ke liang lahad
Menjadi makanan cacing dan makanan ulat
Iringi dirimu ke masjid
Sebelum kamu diiringi ke Pusara

Tangisilah dosa-dosamu di dunia
Kerana tangisan tidak berguna di alam baqa’

Sucikanlah dirimu sebelum kamu disucikan
Sedarlah kamu sebelum kamu disedarkan
Dengan panggilan ‘Izrail yang menakutkan

Berimanlah kamu sebelum kamu ditalkinkan
Kerana ianya berguna untuk yang tinggal
Bukan yang pergi

Beristighfarlah kamu sebelum kamu diistighfarkan
Namun ketika itu istighfar tidak menyelamatkan

Ingatlah di mana saja kamu berada
Kamu tetap memijak bumi Tuhan
Dan dibumbungi dengan langit Tuhan
Serta menikmati rezeki Tuhan

Justeru bila Dia menyeru, sambutlah seruan-Nya
Sebelum Dia memanggilmu buat kali yang terakhirnya

Ingatlah kamu dahulu hanya setitis air yang tidak bererti
Lalu menjadi segumpal darah
Lalu menjadi seketul daging
Lalu daging itu membaluti tulang
Lalu jadilah kamu insan yang mempunyai erti

Ingatlah asal usulmu yang tidak bernilai itu
Yang kalau jatuh ke tanah
Ayam tak patuk itik pun tak sudu!
Tapi Allah mengangkatmu ke suatu mercu
Yang lebih agung dari malaikat!

Lahirmu bukan untuk dunia
Tapi gunakanlah ia buat melayar bahtera akhirat

Sambutlah seruan ‘Hayya ‘alas Solaah’!
Dengan penuh rela dan bersedia

Sambutlah seruan ‘Hayya ‘alal Falaah’!
Jalan kemenangan Akhirat dan Dunia!

Ingatlah yang kekal ialah amal
Menjadi bekal sepanjang jalan
Menjadi teman di perjalanan
Guna kembali ke pangkuan Tuhan

Pada hari itu tiada berguna harta, tahta dan putera
Isteri, kad kredit dan kereta
Kondominium, saham dan niaga

KALAU DAHI TAK MENCECAH SEJADAH DI DUNIA!

Fair enough

Assalamualaikum dear readers,

I really want to share with you a reality that happen to me, us, our family. It is also a prove that Allah is the Most Justice and Most Merciful.

I'm sure most of us have different kind of neighbors, I have two type, immediate neighbors, on my left, and on my right. Both neighbors have different background in terms of educational, nationalities and thinking abilities. One side treat us like we are some kind of garbage and try to bring us apart, blaspheme us, frequently tease us intentionally to make us upset so that they can start a fight, so on and so forth, everything that you can imagine not to have one. But on the other side, they treat us like we are guests to them, always helping, caring, kind-hearted, understanding, humble and adorable family and everything that you can imagine to have a neighbor like that. 

Fair enough isn't it?

I believe Allah put us in the middle so that we, our family lives in reality, that you can't get everything that you ever wanted in this world. I believe Allah has planned so well that Allah did not want us to be ungrateful and I strongly believe that this is the way Allah wants to test us and reward us. 

By knowing so, actually I really have a great neighborhood. Don't you think? It's just the matter of how you perceive it and how you mentally handle the situation. Obviously my hell-side neighbor is mentally or soul-sick but if we treat them like they treat us, we are just about the same. What we do is we seek protection from Allah. 

So, whatever you do or circumstances you are in, it's the matter of how you can change it either you want it to be positive or the other way around.

Palestin itu jauh dari kita

Pada kita derita itu
pada gagalnya peperiksaan
laparnya perut pada makanan
putusnya cinta pada kekasih pujaan
jauhnya ibu ayah dari dakapan
juga habisnya duit dalam bekalan


Pada mereka derita itu
apabila rumah kediaman digesel trak
harta benda serba serbi dirompak
maruah keluarga dipijak-pijak
anak bini dicincang oleh manusia tak berotak
tanah air Islam diinjak-injak

Irama kita
adalah suara siti yang merdu
atau muzik rock yang bingit melegakan
atau suara nasyid yang mendayu-dayu

Irama mereka
bulddozer yang menghiasi setiap pagi
ketulan batu yang dicampak ke muka yahudi
Bom yang tak pernah sunyi berbunyi

Sungguh sukar kita berada di tempat mereka
kita masih tak sanggup menerima ujian sedemikian mereka

Berpisahnya kita dari keluarga cuma sementara
berpisahnya mereka dengan ayah,ibu, adik beradik adalah buat selama-lamanya

Tangisnya kita di dunia adalah kerana gagalnya kita dalam ujian
putusnya cinta atau geramnya pada manusia
tangisnya mereka di dunia kerana tidak dapat membunuh musuh Allah
kerana gagalnya mereka menemui kesyahidan

Rindu kita hanya bauan pada keluarga tercinta
pada kekayaan melimpa ruah
pada umur yang panjang
agar keluarga kita lebih makmur membahagiakan

Rindu mereka pada wangian syurga tertinggi…
pada syahid tanpa henti
pada perjumpaan teragung
dengan Ilahi tercinta…

Siapakah kita berbanding mereka?

25 May 06
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